Wow!

Working out just feels so good! I don't know why I never enjoyed it before! I find it fun to sweat my butt off and be out of breath now. But seriously, I've struggled with weight ever since i was 14. I gained so much weight my junior and senior year of high school. I finally got up off my butt and tried to change that. Now I'm eating healthier and making smarter choices. And most importantly, relaxing and taking it easy. If you want to lose weight, you have to be really patient. If you knew me, you'd know I am the most impatient person EVER. It's been a struggle to not over work myself and not to feel too discouraged.

In the past I was constantly made fun of by family members. My mom especially. I know she just wanted me to be skinny like her. But I've accepted the fact that I will always be a little bigger than most Asian girls. My metabolism is different, my frame is different, my genes are different. The list goes on forever. I will always be me, not anyone else! :) If I don't learn to love myself how will anyone learn to love me for me? This healthy body was given to me and I should take care of it. Never abuse your body girls. At the end of the day you'll just hate yourself. :(

I'm on a journey. To learn more about myself and the world. I hope to meet new people on this journey. I'm always open to the idea of making new friends! :) Anyways, I will continue to work hard at this. I won't give up like I have in the past. I have to understand that some days will be harder than others. I've got to keep my chin up and continue to smile :)))) I need to keep these depressing and negative thoughts away from me!

Life is beautiful, it's a gift that I'm willing to take care of. <3